My insanity is settling in, paying an unwelcomed visit.
I missed the signs. They were subtle and well hidden.
Couldn't see them for what they are...so many distractions, not enough focus.
No, I had focus.
It wasn't there...not here.
Just somwhere else.
So much noise in my head.
I don't want it there.
But...it's like music and I want to dance to it.
Move this way and that.
Just move, sway, feel it take a hold of me.
Just melt into it...it feels so good.
This insanity was absent for so long.
I didn't even here it whispering.
It tricked me! Coming up like a bad cold.
Misinterpretted as allergies.
When you realize what it really is, it's too late.
The hold is strong.
All you can do is ride it out.
I know I'm not just restless, not stir crazy.
I'm full blown manic...and it feels so good...